No one knows what I mean by humblemility except those who study in the same seminary where I graduated in S.Y. 2005-present maybe.
It simply means false humility -technically, proud. And I have this problem. Most of the time in my life, I find myself proud. There were a lot of times when God humbled me. And yet, I haven’t fully learned the lesson well. I don’t get it. Good thing God is so gracious, that He hasn’t struck me with lightning yet.
But there’s something really great to know about this “humblemility” thing. No matter how proud I am, whenever I face God in my personal prayer time, whenever I am in awe of Him, whenever I see clearly His glory, I am greatly humbled -humbled in a true sense.
Seeing my filthiness in view of God’s love makes me love Him more, and motivates me to seek for true humility that can only be attained by having a full awareness of His glory in my life.
When He humbles me, He does not -he never did- condemn me. And that is what makes Jesus really amazing. More than anything, I know his love is true, and I can feel it.
